It's a bright light hope world
Joachim Pastor · Millenium
An Academia of inner healing · Death of worry begin in happy yearning · That's right!
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1. World: Light; clear, young, open, academic; the quintessence of my hope; youth, naivety, simplicity, utopia; healing from all wounds; glass; white sky; universities, academia, learning; tangible intangibility; true, profound happiness, absolute peace making room for improvement; absence of antagonism, no countering of anti-values but just worldly departure from them in a way that negates them; clean fresh water flowing; open architecture; timelessness; resolution of all sufferings; profound success; reasonable lack of chaos; humility in equality; absence of issues; freedom; problemless society; valor; truth; mobility; purity; affection; non-human thinking; a sense of individualism; healing; spring; half-awareness often found in childhood; overcoming darkness and despair; overcoming of all; relief; lack of any serious worry; the light at the end of the tunnel; semi-urban; has a slight Germanic feel to it; spiritual evolution, the learning process; that which comes after the cleansing of all wounds; deep feeling of belonging or wanting to belong; seem to border the Trains and hearths world although they are opposites on the subject
One day I'll commit myself to whatever Angel guards the way to the afterlife, if there is one, and I'll tell him, "I'm regret but I just couldn't do it."
I want to depart, be gone, and finally be free.
Maybe in death I will find true relief for the first time. I'm not enjoying life. However throughout this life I've been exposed to hope. This is why there's often an annoyingly persistent spark that just keeps me dreaming about some dreamful breakthrough.
I'm not sure yet whether it really is a core cluster or just a subworld, but if it's the latter, then the Water centre world would be a sub-subworld and I'd have to think about that one. I did write down that it was a dream-doppel so I don't know either. At any rate both are so similar that I'm also using notes from the Water centre world and it doesn't seem to bother me.
From my notes This border-world feeling has been a recurring theme now, mostly a subworld than a separate territory.
Both seem to like the aquatic element but I'd say Air is the most prevalent. Even when I've had sessions where I entered and it was night the element of "darkness" was not really there. I do think it would make sense for there to be a day/night cycle even though I've almost only ever seen it when it was light. What a world... Hope, Light, it is wondrous. It is so good that one time I woke up in one of its connected pockets I'll call the Astral school, and it was as if I had found my true home. The short moment I spent there was so deep that I woke up crying in good tears.
If there was a message to this cluster then it would be something like another life is possible.
But I'll elect to archive this great quote instead, which was given to me when dream-channeling its general feeling-essence ─ years ago today.
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Whenever I'm thrown back into the old pains and feel my dry dusty wounds it spikes straight into my life outlook and I think about my carotid artery again. Sometimes I try to work with angelic sigils as a cry for help but I'm never able to get into the zone required for it to work. And so it never does. Maybe it's strange. I cannot focus on thinking about these issues and can even less imagine their possible resolution. Even these words feel weird to write. But I wish I could. And I wish it worked. And I wish I believed that it could.
But I don't even know what I'd say.
