An attempt at explaining from a tortured soul

White Ring - Nine Inch Nails - Me I'm Not (White Ring Remix)

For each of us a demon waits beyond the glade


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there is nothing you can do. we will always outplay you, outwork you, outmaneuver you. it's just the natural evolution of this world. we'll always be a part of it.
your precious little morals are nothing. they are fabrications, flimsy little things built on absolutely nothing, and burn away as soon as humanity is laid bare before wars or famine. some of you like to think they come from a place of divinity; but godhood is something you don't even understand, and have never ever gotten close so, and certainly never attained. you do not know the laws by which this world operates. i really invite you to think about it for a moment. there is absolutely nothing you can do against it. it's like trying to fight wind or thunder. like trying to erase the existence of orgasms. humanity is inherently satanic, in a way, you would have to eradicate all humans to delete orgasms.
what can you do? i guess you could pray. if your god is still there and listens to you. maybe he even is! maybe the droning silence that follows your prayers is not an indication of a total absence of any great god who is there for you. or just perhaps you're being heard, by demons biding their time.
the choice is still yours. i'm not telling you that you will inevitably fall to darkness, and you can surely decide to be a being of light and follow that path... for as long as that light lasts. i'm just saying that the darkness will persist long after you have passed on, as it will always be an inherent part of this world, just as a light inherently implies darkness.


The above i wrote after channeling some dark entities... fucking hell, the things i do for you. I'm pretty sure there was more demon than me writing that. I'm having trouble even looking at the text. Anyways.




I'm writing this because some people will try to convince you of the dark wonders of the Left Hand Path. Sometimes they are idiots, sometimes they are manipulators, sometimes both.
I will put into words the way that i understand LHP, which itself is probably flawed and incomplete.
Flawed because the particular way that i may have followed this path aligns with my personality and thus is subject to subjectivity, and incomplete because i don't know fucking everything (many such cases)
Furthermore i want to make it clear that i myself have never really committed myself to this path and basically know it in passing, even though it's still fucking calling to me. I kind of love it, probably, since i don't really know what love feels like, but i still want to warn about it. It's just that, if any idiot pulls it up on wikipedia, he's not gonna get even a sliver of the real picture of things. "Liberation from the judgment of society...!" suck my taint.

It all starts when you meet god. Or, uh, when you reach a particular stage of enlightenment, which is somewhere next to or behind Gnosis. The transcendent state itself is often known as the Union with godhood, the exalted condition in which you are confronted with a few ultimate truths.

Oh... i seem to be a spark of light, a spark of being not truly splintered off the all-being that is Pan, but more like a self-realization of the universe...

When you are faced with Divinity, there the falsely dichotomous branching starts. Look to the Right. The Right Hand Path is when you learn all this and go, "Oh, i am but a piece of God. God, that is Pan, the All, is everything, and more than everything. Everything is god, and the ultimate goal of my spiritual path is to re-integrate, to melt back my soul into that godness. That is the ultimate ecstasy".
That's scary, because implies the absolute obliteration of the ego, of everything that is 'you', and the dweller on the threshold, a negative controlling shadow according to the RHP, is allergic to the idea. The RHP is about self-control, self-acceptance, self-understanding, in order to overcome this dweller's blockade and move on to greater transcendence and not necessarily assimilated, but closer to Pan.

The Left Hand Path is when you look at all that gnosis stuff and go, "Ah... so i contain all the ingredients needed to become God.
I can become a god... The LHP wants to become a deity, so it does not at all see the culmination of the spiritual path to be reintegration with the All because it abhors the idea. The LHP is all about the ego: about having nothing and nobody above oneself because striving to replace the gods of ones life. I shall worship none but myself.

I also suspect that instead, the Left Hand Path decides to indulge in all the impulsive wants directed by that insidious dweller on the threshold to such a degree that you desensitize yourself to it, thereby negating its methods at keeping you from enlightenment.


Now here's where it turns dark.
Following the spiritual path of the LHP will lead to particular practices. The plan is to nullify the barriers to enlightenment by subverting them and desensitizing yourself to them. For example, LHP stipulates that you worship none but yourself; that means that you should hold nothing as more important than you, than more sacred than yourself. After all, aren't you trying to become a true god? To reclaim your birthright? Holding anything else as sacred is essentially worshiping false idols to the LHP while also placing yourself worldly barriers between you and a greater state of being. However, the notion of worship differs.
Because "worship" can simply mean drawing a line. Considering something to be more important than ones desire. Not wanting to fuck with something, because it is not to be touched. But LHP wants you to go and fuck with it. Because you need to rise above it, to ruin the misplaced sacral esteem you're holding for that something, so that you can put yourself above it and rise further.
It is desensitization, in a way. It's like the military surgeon who has to operate on a guy who comes in with his face blown open. Like teeth hanging and shredded bits and stuff like that. You can imagine that the first time this comes up, he might be kind of shaken. But days pile up and surgeries are continuously repeated. The absolute abject horrors that he witnesses just become day to day things. By the thousandth surgical intervention, his heartbeat will be steady.
And he can operate.

Great? I doubt it. He can operate, or what's left of him. He has ruined some part of him, a something within him. Well.

What do you think of when you think of sacred? A common thing that comes up is a church. Of course, a sacred building. When you enter a church, like a real cathedral, what do you notice? It is grand!
It is immense, like the basilisks in Rome, airy, roamy, beautiful, with tinted glasses casting colored light over the wide surfaces, because that's the intention - the idea is to evoke the greatness of God. So what is the typical LHP response to that? I shall have no god before myself. So you destroy the church if you can. You burn it, or if you can't, you desecrate it in some way. Perform vile acts within it. That's the Black mass! It is an inversion of the christian mass, filled with all manners of pungently vile acts and deeds. The idea is that if it pertains to something sacred, you must ruin it. Not just ruin it for the world, but ruin it for yourself.

So that it becomes nothing to you, and unimpeded you can rise on to godhood. Because such puny little things can't matter to you. Such as human life. How puny, get that out of your system, onto sacrificial work... That's LHP. It's not some vague blabber about breaking societal taboos - oh yeah you'll break those! But is that really a good thing? Think for a moment.
A child is innocent. Pure. Not to be touched. That would be a taboo, says society, but says also something else, something beyond. It is sacred.

So you ruin it. Destroy the child. Corrupt them all. Mutilate their organs. Use them as fuckpuppets.
And when the initial horror subsides, you will have risen a little bit, somehow, says the Left Hand Path. Let nothing stand in your way.

Now, look. I'm not trying to yell you that if you want to practice the Left Hand Path you'll be barbecuing babies, i'm just telling you that there have been such people like that in the practice and that it would completely fit within the philosophical framework of the path. You can absolutely practice LHP without hurting really anyone - perhaps only yourself a little bit and burning your mind - and the argument will persist that that is not the full, true authentic and committed LHP practice of the path. But we can fuck them. Truly, in that regard it would be a very LHP response - you don't need to listen to these bitches that tell you how or why you should be doing certain things.

Since, all in all, you can always be a good god (good luck). And you don't have to do all that.
Still, just like National Socialism, i'm not telling you here that being interested in it and following that kind of path is necessarily wrong — it's just that it comes with a certain kind of baggage, a dark fucking history, and that you should weigh your words (and actions) carefully when blabbering on about such a topic.
The Left Hand Path... it allows a destiny of evil intention as well. Deep down i feel that night breeze of freedom there, and i hold it very dear to me. That boundless liberty. But still, a lot of these damn dark entities are just plain manipulative. And looking to enslave souls. They are little bastards and must be fucked off. Most of them are weak but can be terrifying. They use you. Feed on your dark emotions and the attention you give them. First of all, do not be afraid, it's worse and just useless. Your first line of defense is lack of fear. Then, clean up your act. Even physically so. Or just leave the house for good. And LBRP!

And even though i'm blabbering right here, i can advise on something else: those who know don't tell.

Also, just as another cautious indication: i can only imagine that mister God already has some defensive measures in place to take care of any growth that turns a bit too dangerous. Think whoever is already occupying the deity slot wants to be replaced? You wouldn't let your tulpas swallow you whole, would you? Our world is already kind of satanic. And the church is already fighting in the shadows. I have no confirmation of this, but it just seems logical, that if this keeps on going the way they've been forcing it, then we are looking at chemotherapy, my sataniggers, we are contemplating the Apocalypse.


So, next time you hear a quirky little revolutionaire shaking about their goat skulls and raving about LaVey, just giggle bitterly to yourself and move on. There are better things out here. Much worse things also. So just take it easy, okay, chuvak?